im sorry im never that good enough but i try and that never seems to count for me, but im thankful for my life. im something at least. im sorry im so complicated honestly, im growing up, im a teenager and i've been through enough more than most . the loss of a little sister, a father figure, and a bestfriend. i know lifes lessons. i've been there. starving yourself to be "pretty" but honestly i don't know that word anymore. but you see ive been trying on a lot of different smiles lately looking for the one i lost. i just wish everything wasn't so confusing because nothings solid, its always changing. Welcome to my life, i guess .